lupeisnik

 Sometimes I just need to sit down and sort my head out.
Cause I always get the wrong meanings from all your messages.
But I know where to draw the line so I'll just stay behind the boundaries. 

 I'm at an emotional standstill. If only someone else understands how I feel everyday.

 I LOVE PERFORMING AT ESPLANADE.

Period.


PS: I miss rehearsals a lot. Especially everyone at danzpeople. ):

 Hey guys!

I know that I've not been updating this blog regularly. And I know that I've been neglecting a lot of you people. My friends and my family.

Once this busy period ends, I'm sure we'll have lots of time to catch up. :D

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My dance schedule is really crazy. I'm dancing 5-6 days a week. I almost feel like a full-time dancer. LOL.

My knees have been hurting bad and the pain got really bad during the freshie bonding camp. Sandra, I know you'll smack me for not resting but I just went ahead with the camp. In fact, my knees are feeling much better after the painful ordeal at camp.

Never expected Melise to be my choreographer in camp. Haha. She looked at me and went "Nik LovesRed, right?"

Familiar person! :D

And I must thank Melise, Jia Jun and Shufang for helping me learn to engage my muscles more. At least I know how to control my movements better now.

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I hope all goes well with the Da:ns Fest performance. Sigh... I pulled out of the P.A. performance cause of school. D:

I was really looking forward to that great experience. Oh well.

 I'm stressed. Ahmad says he'll pull out the people who screw up the preview this friday and saturday. Guess I HAVE TO dance everyday, despite having a right knee injury. D:

 I promised myself not to dance over the weekends so that my left leg could rest.

I don't know why but I just had my right knee injure itself this morning. It met the side of the bathroom door this morning real hard.

And I can't walk properly now. ZZZ.

I wonder how I'll survive tomorrow's recital rehearsal.

Bad news. I think my leg is really giving way.

Okay. I'm taking back that first sentence. I shall be an optimist and tell myself that I'm just using the wrong muscles.

Ore said to never, ever use the shin muscles when you are bending your legs. Yes, there are muscles on your shin but they are really thin. That's why your shin bones will hurt like hell when someone hits them. And Ore also said never to use any other muscles except for the inner thigh muscles.

Time to be sadistic to myself and start doing his "earthquake" squats. 

I feel a pain on my entire left leg, and the pain worsens from knee down. But its not a really bad pain. It's still bearable. So I think it's just me using the wrong muscles. And the pain (more like sore or swollen vein feeling) is focused at my left ankle.

In the meantime, I shall do some crunches and Ore's "shoe raises" as well to chase the pains away. Time to train up my core and my lines yo.

I don't know if anyone has ever said this before. Your body is your biggest limitation. That's what I learnt. Muscles, please grow! D:


PS: OMGGGG LAAA. PREVIEW IS NEXT WEEK. I MUST CLEAN UP EVERY SINGLE CHOREO AHMAD HAS ASSIGNED ME IN 7 DAYS.

 To Mr.ihategaysandfags,

STOP DEFAMING MY FRIEND LA. ONLY FAGS LAUGH AT PEOPLE BEHIND SCREENS.

Yes you. YOU FILMED MY FRIEND DOWN SECRETLY BEHIND A ONE WAY MIRROR DIDNT YOU.

And I know you'll call me a fag for scolding you here.

I'm not afraid. BRING IT ON. Let's meet up and settle this shit.

Seriously, if you are so righteous, why not stand up to your CORRECT target audience OPENLY?

Oh wait, I forgot, maybe you dropped your balls. Here, let me put them back on your pussy for you.


Zzzzz. Sorry for this post. Just had to do it.

Idk if this is a good sign or a bad sign.

My knees ache when I dance. My lower back (near the hips area) goes sore once in a while. And my thighs are constantly feeling tired. And during sermon that day, I decided to crack my lower back (wrong move). After the loudest and most painful (somewhat shiok though) crack, my entire lower back went numb. 

I guess the tired thighs are okay. Maybe not the knees and back. And I feel some constant ache in my left knee and hip. D:

Dear Lord, please bless that my knees and back and hips don't give waaay. D:

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Ivan's right. Maybe I am a dumbass. 

 Finally seen my true colours.