I'm at an emotional standstill. If only someone else understands how I feel everyday.

 I LOVE PERFORMING AT ESPLANADE.

Period.


PS: I miss rehearsals a lot. Especially everyone at danzpeople. ):

 Hey guys!

I know that I've not been updating this blog regularly. And I know that I've been neglecting a lot of you people. My friends and my family.

Once this busy period ends, I'm sure we'll have lots of time to catch up. :D

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My dance schedule is really crazy. I'm dancing 5-6 days a week. I almost feel like a full-time dancer. LOL.

My knees have been hurting bad and the pain got really bad during the freshie bonding camp. Sandra, I know you'll smack me for not resting but I just went ahead with the camp. In fact, my knees are feeling much better after the painful ordeal at camp.

Never expected Melise to be my choreographer in camp. Haha. She looked at me and went "Nik LovesRed, right?"

Familiar person! :D

And I must thank Melise, Jia Jun and Shufang for helping me learn to engage my muscles more. At least I know how to control my movements better now.

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I hope all goes well with the Da:ns Fest performance. Sigh... I pulled out of the P.A. performance cause of school. D:

I was really looking forward to that great experience. Oh well.

 I'm stressed. Ahmad says he'll pull out the people who screw up the preview this friday and saturday. Guess I HAVE TO dance everyday, despite having a right knee injury. D:

 I promised myself not to dance over the weekends so that my left leg could rest.

I don't know why but I just had my right knee injure itself this morning. It met the side of the bathroom door this morning real hard.

And I can't walk properly now. ZZZ.

I wonder how I'll survive tomorrow's recital rehearsal.

Bad news. I think my leg is really giving way.

Okay. I'm taking back that first sentence. I shall be an optimist and tell myself that I'm just using the wrong muscles.

Ore said to never, ever use the shin muscles when you are bending your legs. Yes, there are muscles on your shin but they are really thin. That's why your shin bones will hurt like hell when someone hits them. And Ore also said never to use any other muscles except for the inner thigh muscles.

Time to be sadistic to myself and start doing his "earthquake" squats. 

I feel a pain on my entire left leg, and the pain worsens from knee down. But its not a really bad pain. It's still bearable. So I think it's just me using the wrong muscles. And the pain (more like sore or swollen vein feeling) is focused at my left ankle.

In the meantime, I shall do some crunches and Ore's "shoe raises" as well to chase the pains away. Time to train up my core and my lines yo.

I don't know if anyone has ever said this before. Your body is your biggest limitation. That's what I learnt. Muscles, please grow! D:


PS: OMGGGG LAAA. PREVIEW IS NEXT WEEK. I MUST CLEAN UP EVERY SINGLE CHOREO AHMAD HAS ASSIGNED ME IN 7 DAYS.

 To Mr.ihategaysandfags,

STOP DEFAMING MY FRIEND LA. ONLY FAGS LAUGH AT PEOPLE BEHIND SCREENS.

Yes you. YOU FILMED MY FRIEND DOWN SECRETLY BEHIND A ONE WAY MIRROR DIDNT YOU.

And I know you'll call me a fag for scolding you here.

I'm not afraid. BRING IT ON. Let's meet up and settle this shit.

Seriously, if you are so righteous, why not stand up to your CORRECT target audience OPENLY?

Oh wait, I forgot, maybe you dropped your balls. Here, let me put them back on your pussy for you.


Zzzzz. Sorry for this post. Just had to do it.

Idk if this is a good sign or a bad sign.

My knees ache when I dance. My lower back (near the hips area) goes sore once in a while. And my thighs are constantly feeling tired. And during sermon that day, I decided to crack my lower back (wrong move). After the loudest and most painful (somewhat shiok though) crack, my entire lower back went numb. 

I guess the tired thighs are okay. Maybe not the knees and back. And I feel some constant ache in my left knee and hip. D:

Dear Lord, please bless that my knees and back and hips don't give waaay. D:

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Ivan's right. Maybe I am a dumbass. 

 Finally seen my true colours.

I am bored.

I'm actually contemplating the idea of downloading and installing windows on my mac, just so that I can play stupid games (but they really help pass the time) like maplestory and gunbound, and maybe audition as well.

The days when I'm not dancing are spent stoning at home instead. I should just get my ass off my chair and start doing head isolations.

Speaking of head, my scalp is itching like crazy now.

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The PC at home finally died. XP got corrupted, and so did vista. So the entire bulk of metal was moved to the study room and dumped in a forgotten and dusty corner.

Sad. I spent years with it. Imagine all the flies and moths it watched me dodge. Imagine all the grime and dirt from my hands (and my family members' too) stuck in that keyboard. And since it's a second hand keyboard, there might be grime and dirt from other people's hands too.

And the poor machine had to endure years of getting hit on the CPU. Guess it just gave up on us.

It's death is kind of good too. At least my Macbook doesn't hum like the old PC does. Even the neighbours could have known if we switched the old PC on.

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Last but not least, I shall end off with a picture of the MJ dance rehearsal. Sucked ttm. Really.



I'm going to meet the A1 people tomorrow for Suntec finals. Go NRA! :D

I know I may sound like a stalker or something but...

I GOT TO SEE TERENCE REHEARSE IN THE STUDIO. DOPE TTM!

Throughout the few practices IF U R HAPPY N U KNOW IT CLAP UR HANDS (that's their crew name) had before our freshie class started, Terence was merely marking out all his steps. Marking is when you don't go all out and use minimal effort to dance.

And the guys were all already at a level none of us can reach. Just by marking they awed all of us.

My new idol is a local guy. Hahaha. Local talent siolz.

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I almost forgot that I'm actually schooling. The holidays have been extremely tiring for me but I love it. Imagine dancing every single day.

AND I'M IN THE STUDIO ALMOST EVERYDAY. Shiokness ttm.

And you know what? All this hard work made me realise that I really, really, really LOVE dancing a lot.

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The MJ dance performance is over! :D

PS: I love dancing a lot! And I love NRA a lot too. :D
PPS: Irregular chest pains are not good.
PPPS: OH SHIT. ALLEGRA NOW KNOWS IM FROM NRA. D:

I hope YOU are reading this my dear friend.

When you love her and your love is one-sided (unfortunately), the best thing you can do is to make her happy. I'm sure when she smiles and laugh, you follow suit.

In a relationship, friendships for the best example, it's what you give, and not what you take. If you keep wanting something from that person, he/she would get irritated at you I'm sure.

Don't pressure her , my friend. Ultimately, like what I told you, it's "what she wants" and not "what I want". You might have been too demanding and pushy. Girls don't like guys like that. And guys don't like girls like that either.

Hope all goes well for you two. And stay friends okay. I'm a text message away if you need me.

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I had an insightful conversation with Luke just now. Don't know what I'd do if I never met Sandra or him. Or the other friends.

I'm really happy! Okay, maybe not that exuberant but I'm still glad that Keone and Mari would want to come down to NP to teach the NRA students. If only I knew about the external classes... ):

I didn't register! That's like freaking retarded right! I don't know if I should ask the committee members if there might still be a slither of hope for me to meet my idols.

Anyway, in case you don't know who Keone Madrid and Mariel Martin are, here are two videos to introduce them to you.

This is Keone.
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My dance idols... D:

 NRA classes are now twice a week.

Mondays and Wednesdays for me. O.O

This week is really going to be a hell of a week. 

This is my awesome schedule. Everything red is dance related (training mostly). I hope I don't run out of dance attire and stamina!

And Sandra, the first step to dancing is to sign up for courses. :D

PS: Oh. So Ahmad's training starts next Tuesday. 

Check out the following two videos. Sandra wonders why I got into Allegra's item. Haha. But I think Allegra is dope!

I got into Allegra's item! Woo!

She has that jazz funk style. And she's also an NRA alumni. Scary. I hope I live up to her expectations.



And I hope i look smexaye enough to do jazz funk. HAHAHA!

The usual dance gang all made it! I'm proud of everyone! And we're all split into different items, with the exception of Ie Ching and Brian who are both under Eve's wing.

Diana the popper is under Ben's item.
Wilfred the lyrical hip hopper is under Alex (he's good you know, so don't emo, Wil).
Ie Ching and Brian are both going to train under Eve.
Huixian was under Alex but is now under Xuehui & Xiaohei.
And me? I'm under Allegra.

Haha. I hope everyone enjoys themselves.

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I had a nice time with the usual dance peeps today. We ate (okay, they ate, but I ate before they ate). We talked. We laughed. And we ate dessert together. :D

They make me feel at ease. Really. (:

PS: Brian! You and your goreng pisang! 

PPS: I MISS YOU, SANDRA! D:

Semester one is over. Like officially. I hope things get better next sem.

I hope the things broken can be mended, somehow. And somehow, I don't know if I should have been that cold.

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Anyway, Sandra and I had a nice close-to-midnight walk by the Singapore longkang (aiya, it's the Singapore river luh!) last night. Thanks for the bottle of Jim Beam, it kept me up till 3 in the morning. And thank you for talking so much. I haven't listened in a really long time.

I hope Natasha and you both feel better. No matter what happened in that room, I know you guys already won. The audience reacted appropriately to the film. They laughed, they went "Aww". Eighty over people in the audience are enough to overrule the judgement of two professionals, right?

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Baybeats was freaking AWESOME! Correction, THE GREAT SPY EXPERIMENT was freaking awesome! (:

I got to experience a new kind of environment. I guess every culture grows its own followers. Like how the street dancers (those at heart too) dress in baggy clothes head to toe, the people who were cheering TGPE last night had a really unique flavor to themselves. The air was filled with tobacco and my tongue tasted sweet alcohol.

I love the nightlife at esplanade. (:

Flag day today was an awesome experience. It made me realise that no matter how cold and selfish the society (in Singapore) is, there are always a few kind souls lingering here and there.

Well, the entire FCBC volunteered and we were spread out all around Singapore. My tribe was situated at Bras Basar. Van and I were paired up and we took to the curb opposite CHIJMES, just outside Raffles City. Haha. That curb brought back tons of memories.

I remember rushing down to the old O School for dance classes. I remember being late. I remember being very early.

Anyway, I'd really like to thank the Lord for giving me so many opportunities to dance, mostly for FREE.

Firstly, I auditioned for the O School recital. If I get it, it's free trainings every weekend (I hope). Then there's this small opening item for Jowee and co from NRA. I don't know when training for that starts though. And lastly, Ahmad asked his students if we want to perform for this dance fest. Of course I said yes!

He sent us this long email. Anne's invited too! But she can't commit. D:

Brian showed me this pair of Sexy Diamond jeans.



But the thing is, I'm not really interested in the pair of jeans. Notice the model's purple dunks? Dope stuff.

I hope I get the job from my aunt. Haha. Hope her boss likes my "articles". He asked to view it, so I'm just going to show him all my presentations, especially the marcom one. Woo. Without my group I'm sure I won't have anything to show my aunt's boss.

Aight. Time to dream of an overflowing wardrobe of clothes, accessories and shoes. Oh, and dance classes every evening. :D